Enfin.

Farewell nightmares I am free

Welcome streams of sweet dreams

That settles over me~

What lies out there

 No one knows

The tide could bring in anything
So steady as she goes...

Steady as she goes...

Well, disaster it strikes on a daily basis and I'm looking for wisdom in all the wrong places but still wanna laugh in disappointed faces. (:

Overseas.
Hmm. (:

Yesterday, I met up with my mum's client's son.
He just came back from Australia and have only one good thing to say about his time there
"transportation is convenient but!"
...but a million of things he disliked.
Boy, he was a big blob of... complaints and criticism!
He was, non other than Mr. fault-finding.

Imagine if this was The Sims,
I would have had two no scratch that three gigantic red negatives on my head!
- - - !!
Take that :P  

I'm fed up of hearing people going "Ah, you think you know so much, but you've never experienced it. I should know better, I have. Just you wait."
When I reply "Well, I have heard of many others who did have good experiences, I've not experienced much, yes I do know that, but then again, I will never really know until I experienced from myself will I? What makes you think just because you did not have a good experience, I would end up the same?"

Two reactions:


a) They'll shake their head, and switch topic.
b) They'll respond quickly "Ah.... Yeah yeah.. .. It ehh... really differs from people also."

I do listen to people who have had their knowledge about things I don't know,
 but you don't go around telling people in that kinda manner.
Reality bites.
See what I'm doing is, instead of feeling over-anxious and end up a wreck before I even begin, I'm trying to face it with a positive attitude.

Don't you see? I'm not saying I know.
But I'm willing to put up with it and have MY own experiences may it good or bad.
I may not like it, I may, who's to say?

“We don’t see the things the way they are. We see things the way WE are.”

“If you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change.”

“Man often becomes what he believes himself to be. If I keep on saying to myself that I cannot do a certain thing, it is possible that I may end by really becoming incapable of doing it. On the contrary, if I have the belief that I can do it, I shall surely acquire the capacity to do it even if I may not have it at the beginning.”

"Happiness is not the absence of problems, but the ability to deal with them."

Just because you don't have a single friend there and pretty much it seems like you hate everything there, doesn't mean I will.

Well, here's my experience,
Mr.Ex piano teacher told me that for me to get prepared for Grade 4 Theory from not even completing Grade 3, requires a lot of work. He said he wasn't sure I could.
 I told him I will work hard but what I was thinking Grade 5 even?
 He laughed and said "Whoa. That's impossible. EVEN I can't."
For every class, instead of encouraging me when I struggled, he just went " I told you so. "
To the extent I got so tired putting up with him.
He got fired.
Ms.Lily came in. (Thanks Miki)
Said it wasn't going to be easy but there is no harm trying. In the end, I did it.
 See, if I stuck with that negative piece of shit hee hee I swear I couldn't have.
 Though it wasn't because he was a pessimist
but simply his teaching is "too advanced" for me to understand. Idiot.
Tee hee.

Whew, I feel better.
YAY, LANGKAWI!
YAY, CHRISTMAS IS COMING!
YAY, CHINESE NEW YEAR!
YAY, BRISBANE!

Well I'm stubborn and wrong,
But at least I know it
I keep moving along,
And hope I can get through this.
But maybe this song is the best I can do it
So I'm patiently waiting on these
Heroes and Thieves at my door
And I can't seem to tell them apart anymore
Just when I figured it out
Darling it's you I'm without.

Seems like I'm getting closer somehow
A flicker of peace that I finally found
Thank you for believing in me now
'Cause I do need it (:

Just saying...

Today is a good day.
I'm not angry or whatever, in fact I'm in a great mood. However,
(:

Just something to let out...
I despite negative people!
Yet I'm surrounded by them.
Screw you and the "bad energy/vibe" you give out.
It's a little bit.. how do I put it.. irritating.
If making people feel a little worse helps you feel a little better inside,
well aren't you just a cruel, sad sad person. Oh am I sorry for you.
Just an observation on my part.

 p.s. : I'm jusssst saying. whew!

I'm in repair, I'm not together but I'm getting there.

I've got it all, but I feel so deprived

I go up, I come down and I'm emptier inside

Tell me what is this thing that I feel like I'm missing

And why can't I let it go?

There's gotta be more to life,

Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me

Cause the more that I'm tripping out thinking there must be more to life

Well it's life, but I'm sure there's gotta be more than wanting more.

22.Nov.10

Results for Grade 5 Piano Theory came in yesterday..
 Received a Merit! (80/100)
If only I hadn't screw up the 10 marks..
Oh well! Yayyyyer (:

PS: Leila this is for you!

Holy cow.

Short update. (:


"Agony and beauty live side by side"

Gotta love them heels.

Today, my beloved iPod decided to go cuckoo and spontaneously wipe out everything that was in it.

Tee hee. I must say, I handle it pretty well. Shocker.

In other news, received my offer letter for Trinity :)

Yet to hear from IES for UQ next week!

Yayyyer :D

"Komanshinada?"

I remember just wasting away in front of the computer screen for hours and hours on The Sims.
Just downloaded the soundtracks and just thought wow.. all the memories.
As soon as you hear that "EA Games.. Challenge Everything." and that epic Sims music, you escape reality and suddenly the world is in the palm of your hands and life just got so much better. Fast forwarding shower time, sleeping time, talking to a mirror to gain Charisma time, reading books to gain Logic time, and pause when you get robbed and start buying furnitures to block the path of the robber from getting to your house (or when you have bad parenting skills and the lady comes to steal your baby) . Finding  new ways to kill someone by drowning them in the pool and taking out the pool ladder, building a fence around them and just watch them pee and complain or simply, not having any skills at cooking and burn down the house.
Watching them speak a fictional gibberish unknown language whilst trying to figure out what language that was.

Carefree times.
Ah. GOOD times Good times.. . (:

Septembre Septembre

Long hiatus. I know I know.
It's been awhile since I've updated. (:
Hmm.

Hot like wow.

Who's John Mayer again? :P

Oh mother.

Mom's the best mom ever.

My body rocks a rhythm, you beat my drum hard! :B

Yesterday us girls went to 1 Utama to celebrate Cheyenne's (belated) birthday.
Cheyenne I hope you had a good time! Love ya! XOXO

Pictures from yesterday.

Breakfast at Paddington House Of Pancakes.

Chilled at Juice Works.

Lunch at Ms.Read

Watched The A-Team.

Had the hots for Bradley Cooper since The Hangover.
Never knew his name though 'till yesterday.
I just knew him as Phil Wenneck.



I want this shirt! Haha. Remember Baby "Carlos"?

Who's to say what's impossible and can't be found.

I have Astro again! Yayyyer!
After a whole year.
Finally :)

Hallucination much?

As I was typing a word to be translated...

S... u... t... e..

What in the world?
Alright can some please explain to me?

It's not that we don't care, we just know that the fight ain't fair.

TOEFL test. Here I go.

If you wanna sing out, sing out. If you wanna be free, be free.

Wouldn't it be nice if we were older
Then we wouldn't have to wait so long
And wouldn't it be nice to live together
In the kind of world where we belong

What's the use in fixing what will only break again? :B

Just got back from Poh Kiat's open house. Thank you Poh Kiat!
Really enjoyed myself tonight with le friends.
Tonight is a good good night. (:

I am only trying to be the best with my intent to heal.

Twice as much ain't twice as good

And can't sustain like one half could

It's wanting more that's gonna send me to my knees
 

Just keep me where the light is.

What can I say,

I'm mesmerized. (:

I don't give a damn, I'm happy as a clam :P

SEVENTEENth BIRTHDAY (:

We'll start off with the Black Notebook my brother bought for me.

24th of April.

My Pre-Birthday Celebration with the girls.

Lucky lucky me! All managed to show up on that day :D

Thank you girls ♥

In Cheyenne's car on the way to Sunway Pyramid...

Breakfast At Itallianies.

Lunch At Bubba Gump.

The Stink Eye.

Being "Cheeky".

Wai Mun & Me.

Close Up!

Eskimo Kisses. Just cause' I love em!

The Girls.

Dinner At Sushi Zanmai with Wai Mun & Justine.

26th Of April.

Celebrated my birthday with Dad, Little Brother & Kakak Yatun.

I made John take pictures.

He HATES taking pictures.

We took plenty! But I'm only posting a few of my favourites from the bunch.

He's gonna kill me once he knows I posted em' up.

Oppsss! TOO BAD.

PS: John's the one that took the photos.

I got to say...
As I was editing the photos, I feel heavy-hearted.
There's not much to say.

I just feel so thankful for the blessing.
I've never been happier.