Wednesday, December 08, 2010

Enfin.



Farewell nightmares I am free

Welcome streams of sweet dreams
That settles over me~

What lies out there
 No one knows
The tide could bring in anything
So steady as she goes...
Steady as she goes...


Saturday, December 04, 2010

Well, disaster it strikes on a daily basis and I'm looking for wisdom in all the wrong places but still wanna laugh in disappointed faces. (:

Overseas.
Hmm. (:

Yesterday, I met up with my mum's client's son.
He just came back from Australia and have only one good thing to say about his time there
"transportation is convenient but!"
...but a million of things he disliked.
Boy, he was a big blob of... complaints and criticism!
He was, non other than Mr. fault-finding.
Imagine if this was The Sims,
I would have had two no scratch that three gigantic red negatives on my head!
- - - !!
Take that :P  

I'm fed up of hearing people going "Ah, you think you know so much, but you've never experienced it. I should know better, I have. Just you wait."
When I reply "Well, I have heard of many others who did have good experiences, I've not experienced much, yes I do know that, but then again, I will never really know until I experienced from myself will I? What makes you think just because you did not have a good experience, I would end up the same?"

Two reactions:


a) They'll shake their head, and switch topic.
b) They'll respond quickly "Ah.... Yeah yeah.. .. It ehh... really differs from people also."

I do listen to people who have had their knowledge about things I don't know,
 but you don't go around telling people in that kinda manner.
Reality bites.
See what I'm doing is, instead of feeling over-anxious and end up a wreck before I even begin, I'm trying to face it with a positive attitude.
Don't you see? I'm not saying I know.
But I'm willing to put up with it and have MY own experiences may it good or bad.
I may not like it, I may, who's to say?

“We don’t see the things the way they are. We see things the way WE are.”

“If you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change.”


“Man often becomes what he believes himself to be. If I keep on saying to myself that I cannot do a certain thing, it is possible that I may end by really becoming incapable of doing it. On the contrary, if I have the belief that I can do it, I shall surely acquire the capacity to do it even if I may not have it at the beginning.”


"Happiness is not the absence of problems, but the ability to deal with them."



Just because you don't have a single friend there and pretty much it seems like you hate everything there, doesn't mean I will.

Well, here's my experience,
Mr.Ex piano teacher told me that for me to get prepared for Grade 4 Theory from not even completing Grade 3, requires a lot of work. He said he wasn't sure I could.
 I told him I will work hard but what I was thinking Grade 5 even?
 He laughed and said "Whoa. That's impossible. EVEN I can't."
For every class, instead of encouraging me when I struggled, he just went " I told you so. "
To the extent I got so tired putting up with him.
He got fired.
Ms.Lily came in. (Thanks Miki)
Said it wasn't going to be easy but there is no harm trying. In the end, I did it.
 See, if I stuck with that negative piece of shit hee hee I swear I couldn't have.
 Though it wasn't because he was a pessimist
but simply his teaching is "too advanced" for me to understand. Idiot.
Tee hee.

Whew, I feel better.
YAY, LANGKAWI!
YAY, CHRISTMAS IS COMING!
YAY, CHINESE NEW YEAR!
YAY, BRISBANE!

Well I'm stubborn and wrong,
But at least I know it
I keep moving along,
And hope I can get through this.
But maybe this song is the best I can do it
So I'm patiently waiting on these
Heroes and Thieves at my door
And I can't seem to tell them apart anymore
Just when I figured it out
Darling it's you I'm without.

Seems like I'm getting closer somehow
A flicker of peace that I finally found
Thank you for believing in me now
'Cause I do need it (: